1. Dear Jesse

From the recording Dear Jesse

Written 1994, Age 17. While watching his younger brother innocently sleep. Jesse first heard this song after Dan had passed away.


Dear Jesse

I watch you sleeping peacefully, silent
Dreaming seven-year-old dreams
I watch you sleeping peacefully, quiet
Dear Jesse, it’s 11:59 p.m.

I have been to church today
and I have also sworn violent
I have been in love today with three separate women
and I have questioned the existence of God today
I have also argued for him
I have broken, I have spoken
I have lived, I have laughed,
I have hated

and dear Jesse, dear Jesse, dear Jesse,
it’s 11:59 p.m.

Two weeks from now I’ll be eighteen
and they will label me a man
Two weeks from now you’ll be playing on the playground
with your other second-grade friends
Twenty years from now I’ll be thirty-eight years old
or it’s possible that I’ll be dead
But for now I’m only singing
while your cotton candy dreams
go dancing through your head

But for now, dear Jesse, it’s 11:59 PM, dear Jesse

So frightening to leave home
but more frightening to remain
and although I’m a man now and you’re still a child
to me there is no difference between us at all (turns page)
To me we are exactly the same
Everybody always thinks how they mature so much
but as children we forever remain
I have lived and I’ve loved and I’ve given
I’ve laughed and I’ve lied and I’ve tried
And I’ve smiled and I’ve learned and I’ve forgiven and I’ve yearned
I’ve disguised and I’ve scorned
and I’ve hated all in the same day

and dear Jesse, it’s 11:59 p.m. and dear Jesse, it’s 11:59 p.m.
and what has been accomplished in the end?
And I can change nothing,
nothing that has been done
Separate we are nothing
but together are one in love
and broken we are nothing
but are forever one in Love.
Love ... love ... love